I often wish, you should have been more confident, more capable of taking a stand and sticking to it ....that you should be able to stand up for yourself and for us.
For once, you should apply that mind of your own and make a point..... Just the way I do all the time. The way I have been doing it, for as long as I can remember, even in the most testing of times.
Then I wonder, how and when did I come to become the person I am. This fearless, honest, independent, outspoken woman, I like to believe myself to be.
Who instilled these values in me that I swear by, who filled my heart with empathy and love? Who taught me to think rationally? Where from did I learn to speak my mind? When did I know that I have a mind of my own? Who gave me the courage to stand up for myself and my loved ones and for what is right and from whom did I learn to know the difference? Yes, I was born with a conscience, who taught me to keep it alive?
Its then that I see it ....clearly, though it has always been there ....
You taught me all this, I became this person because of what you made of me, and you made me so different from your own self. You made me so much better than you. You made me.... a better version of you!
I realise this today, when unknowingly, I try to do the same with my daughter.
When I encourage her to draw and paint and dance and express herself, when I tell her that she can be just what she can dream to become, when I tell her that she needs to fear no one, when I tell her to be more loving and compassionate.
I know, one day she is going to wish for me to be have been able to do all this and more :)
May be, some day she will realise that I made her a better version of me ....God willing, if I succeed:)
